Stagnant

There has been a lot of activity in the lives of many people around me. Be it good or bad, new and terrifying, or expected and thrilling, it seems every one but me has something going on.

I could go into what everyone’s doing but that would just depress me further, so I won’t. I know I have a wonderful life I’m not complaining about that at all. I just need something new. My husband and I have decided that I should go back to work, but I have some traveling to do first. So now I’m counting down the days until I can start sending resumes out again. I know I could start looking now but my luck they’d call me back and want me to start now.

I feel like I’m 18 again. You know, the age between high school and college or a job, and you feel like you’re just sitting around waiting for your life to begin. It really sucks.

My husband makes a good living, obviously, but if we want to own a home or ever have new vehicles then I need a job too. I’m fine with that, truthfully I don’t really love being at home all the time. I think a lot of it has to do with me still being bitter about losing my last job. If I hadn’t been fired we could already have the life we want, or at least be well on our way to it.
Finding a job won’t be that hard, but finding one that’s worth having after gas and childcare will be hard. Childcare is what really kills you. If I work part-time I need to make at least $11 an hour to actually bring anything home. Sad right! I was looking at vehicles yesterday doing all the math, I could get a 2013 Honda Pilot and my monthly payments would be almost 100 less than what I’d pay for childcare in the same month. That makes me crazy!

These next few weeks are going to drag and I know it. I have to do my traveling first ‘cause I know I won’t be able to do it once I get a job. So now I get to sit on my hands for the next month or so just compiling a list of places to apply to.

This sucks

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