Frustrating

For the 2nd time in as many weeks I have a new phone and new number. Honestly sometimes I feel seriously sorry for this world and what it has become.

Remember the days before cell phones? Before video games, and massive televisions?

I do, and I miss them.

I hate that I HAVE to have a cell phone. I mean don't get me wrong on my hour commute to work with a 2yr old I like that I can call for help if I need it, I'm talking about all the other stuff.

Seriously do we need to literally run our whole world with a "phone"? Not only do they have the internet but there's an app for just about EVERYTHING!!

I hate how much time I waist everyday online, most days I don't get out of bed before checking my facebook. I know that I should be able to control myself, but like any other addiction it creeps up on you and you don't realize whats happening until it's to late.

It is an addiction, people are addicted to technology, and especially social media. I wonde if I'm one of the very few who see what's happening. I know a lot of people see it but No one wants to actually do anything about it... Gahh

I'm going to stop now before I get myself in trouble...

Stay Tuned
God Bless

Little blessings

Sitting on the couch snuggling my beautiful, but sickly little girl. Looking back the past 24 hours have really been a mess. I could not be more proud of my little family at this moment.

This time last night we we all enjoying a delicious daddy made dinner, everything was fine. Fast forward a few hours, I am hastily awakened my frantic husband. "The baby's throwing up!!!!" I'll spare you the gross details but we were up all night with our puking crying toddler.

At this point I'd like to try and stress my husbands throw up disability. He can't handle anything puke related, he can't even talk about it with out gagging!! So to have something actually throw up on him nearly killed him!

So five hours, 3 showers, 7 outfit changes, and 6 sheet changes she finally got everything up and the 3 of us past out together in the big bed.

I'm sure you parents know, a sick kid plus no sleep usually means snappy attitudes and harsh words. I am proud of us because we made it through all that without losing our tempers or exchanging nasty words. Even now at almost 8pm my husband volunteers to go to Wawa to get soup and sandwiches for dinner. We are two days exhausted a cranky feverish toddler that won't eat, and still we're holding hands trying to calm our baby.

We are so blessed to have each other, and I can honestly say I'd be utterly lost without him sometimes.

Some days really do just suck, but if you stop to see all the little blessings each day brings you will be much happier.

Stay Tuned.
God Bless.

Cutting Ties

I have to say there is something so very freeing about cutting ties with the negative and toxic people in life. 
I know that seems like a stupidly obvious statement, but I know there are so many people in the world that stay in all kinds of unhealthy relationships because they are more afraid of the unknown.

I don't specifically mean spousal relationships, I mean any and all connections. In the past few months I have gotten rid of friends and even family members. Just today I finally went through my phone and deleted numbers(I had them saved so I'd know not to answer) that I haven't called, or been called by in many moons. IT WAS SO FREEING!!!!

Removing people from your life is always challenging. You worry that it'll be messy, that they won't let go. That you might want or need them later in life, or for some ridiculous reason you feel like you owe them something. Guess what! YOU DON'T!!!!

I was very blessed that my situation went smoothly. I was not expecting that at all. I was expecting threats and phone calls and "public humiliation". While we did receive a bit of those from some, for the most part they were quiet separations. I know others won't be so lucky but trust me it is worth it in the long run!

Honestly the last like 6 months of our life have really been the best we've had, and things are just going to get better form here (GOD willing). It is such an awesome feeling to wake up every day enjoying your life! Reconnecting with yourself and things you like. Not adding other idiot peoples stress to your own! Cause you know we all do it, spend an afternoon with that one awful friend who is just awful in all kinds of ways, you get home and spend the rest of your day/night thinking/worrying/agonizing about what they should do or how you could help. All the does is drain you in every way possible and they NEVER listen so why should you bother!

I feel that every few years people should sit down with a list of the voluntary people(family/friends, there's really not much you can do about co-workers :/) in their lives, and going through each and every one of them asking "What does this person bring to the table?". If it takes more then 5 seconds to think of a legitimately good quality it's time for them to go. Also if your only answer is but we've been _________ for years, that doesn't matter they need to go! Life is to short to keep people who don't bring joy or love or other nice feelings to you. 

 I could go on and on about how much better our life is but it would sound pompous and would lessen the point of my message. Really the time is NOW to clean out your life and your head.

Stay Tuned 
GOD Bless