My Little Secret:

This blog is so far my secret. The only person who knows about it is my husband because I reference him and our daughter, and I know he would never even try to find it. I don’t have many friends who would be interested in following me but I don’t want to be hindered by what they might think of what I write.

I want  to get on here and let everything out, all my love, my hate, my anger, and frustration without worrying that I’m going to get an angry phone call ‘cause somebody thinks it’s about them. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't either way does it matter?

I want to express my self in the truest form without fear of repercussion. I know people may not like what I say and leave nasty comments but once I log off that doesn’t matter anymore. I don’t want to discuss my feelings or how I came up with a topic. I want to say what I have to say and be done with it. Once it’s out I’m over it, let it go.

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MUSIC

I could go on for days about my love of music. Genres, styles, what I like, what I don’t. But that would be long and boring.

Above all else music is the great communicator, we can all agree on that. You don’t need to know the language to love the sound. I think a lot of people over look the power music has in our day to day lives. A single song could make or break your whole day. If you’re debating a life choice what you listen to can sway your decision, or at least your thought process.

IMAGINE:

You just spent the day fighting with your significant other. You put your ear buds in and start doing dishes. 3 Days Grace “I Hate Everything About You” starts pumping into your brain. Suddenly your bad mood skyrockets as you think about how he always leaves the seat up, how she always makes you late. How he/she just doesn’t get it!!!

                        ~BREAK UP TIME/SUPER FIGHT~

Now Imagine the same situation, but this time The Script’s “For the First Time” comes on. It makes you stop and breath. It makes you realize you’re in this relationship for a reason, yes it’s not all happiness and sunshine, but it’s worth it. You try so hard to keep it all together, and it’s so easy to let things just fall apart. Nothing worth while comes easy, and you do have to fight for it.

                        ~Make up Sex~

BOOM!

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Not your gooey love post:

Recently I joined a FB group a friend of mine made called “Bridge Post”. It’s a page for philosophical, thought provoking post. I wrote something to post, and sent it to my friend just for a second opinion. He butchered it. I mean the general premise was still there but not a single one of MY words made it to the page that day. So here’s my first and probably last “Bridge Post”.

“It has been said that “Others thought of you are really none of your business.” The same goes for feelings. Whether good or bad what people feel is on them. A lot of people have trouble understanding this I think. IF you love someone that person doesn’t OWE you anything, whether you’re in a relationship with them or if it’s unrequited, your feelings are your own deal with them. Same goes for someone loving you. You don’t need to love them back! If you do that’s amazing real love is hard to find. But if you don’t then, as mean as this sounds, don’t even think about it. It has nothing to do with you. That person needs to get past it, and if you don’t acknowledge it there’s nothing for them to hang on too. I could go on and on about this but I won’t, so take it or leave it.”  

My words may be harsh but sometimes you need to be to open someone’s eyes. I want my thoughts and words to be heard not my ideas with another's input. This incident was the main reason I started this blog.

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When crazy minds can't sleep

OK so before I start to ramble I want to point out I am using this blog as a socially acceptable way to talk to my self...
Being on the internet I know I only have so long before someone finds me out. I can't explain it, but I have this overwhelming need to get as many posts published as I can before people realize I'm here. 
So here I am laying next to the snoring love of my life and every time I close my eyes I come up with a new topic that HAS to come out. Now I'm going to go in to word and try to get most of my thoughts down before I become incoherent. If you ever notice a crap ton of posts in these early days of my blog it's because I have a lot to say and can't keep secrets to save my life.

Please be patient I swear I have great things to say once I get the hang of this.

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...Thoughts...

I was so excited to wake up and post something new. This is my new toy, and I want to play with it as much as I can!
Yesterday I spent the most of the day in my notebook writing post ideas, but I'm not in the same mood I was in yesterday... 
It's 9 in the morning and I'm watching my 16mos old baby feed herself yogurt. She's making a horrible mess but that's alright because she has to learn, and if I try to take the spoon she freaks out!(so independent!) Our  almost 2yr old puppy is also watching her waiting his turn at all the yogurt on her face and jammies. She is laughing and talking like we are two ladies at luncheon. Watching her strawberry yogurt covered face as she tells me something that appears very serious is just to much for me not to smile. All of our mornings are like this, I really am very lucky. 
Sorry for my mommy rambling when I sat done to this I wasn't really sure what I wanted to say today.
It is a lot harder  job than I ever thought. I may complain about it a lot, but if this is all I ever do it is a greater accomplishment than most can claim. I am literally shaping the next generation. If you ever get the thought that you want to make the world a better place, spend time with a child, any child. Whether it's a friends child or a niece or nephew or even become a big brother or sister. Everyone wants to save the planet well how about we save our children so they too want to save the planet. If those who come after us don't care about anything all our efforts are wasted. 
WOW I'm really all over the place today perhaps I'll be done for now before I get myself in trouble...

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O.K. So now what..?

It's official! I've started a blog... Now what??
After making mine I spent the afternoon skimming through other people's just to see what I should be doing.
This really is an "anything goes" kind of place. Everyone I saw was different. From content to posting style(some people don't even write!). Knowing I can't do this "wrong" makes it easier, though it still scares the hell out of me.
I plan to share my heart and soul on here with the hopes that no one I actually know sees it...

So let's get started!!
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First Time Don't Judge

First off I am internet retarded and I somehow made this blog all by myself . GO ME!!!!
I haven't told anyone about it yet so if you've found me YAY YOU!!

A little bit about me:
I am  a stay at home wife and mom so excuse me if sometimes my thoughts get jumbled I'm probably chasing around my 1yr old. I love my life. My husband is amazing and our daughter is the most beautiful thing I've ever done. But this isn't about them. This is about me and my thoughts and feelings, the things you tend to lose as a S.A.H.M. "You spend your day chasing babies and doing laundry theres nothing going on in your pretty little nogging." I'm not sure how many people feel that way, but that's how I feel when people look at me, so this is my answer.
I don't care if no one reads this or if a million people do, this is for me and if I help someone in the process than so much the better.

I hope you have a lovely day.
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