Hello again,
I almost can't believe how long it's been since my last post....
A lot has happened since we last talked, to much to get into now but I guess that's why I'm finally writing again.
I am on maternity leave at the moment and spending the last 4 weeks with only my 3yr old for conversation has made me realize how much I miss having a friend. Usually when I tell people I don't have any friends they nervously chuckle and say "oh that can't be true." I guess it does sort of puts an awkward damper on superficial conversations.
What I don't tell people is that if it weren't for my hubby I would honestly have no need for a voice. I really don't have anyone to talk to. With hubby starting his own business I don't even see him most days and being out of work for the moment I am seeing how much I miss having someone else....
Sadly I am at the point where I can see my problem and the solution but can't for the life of me figure out how to get from here to there. Most people can make friends at work, I live an hour away from everyone I work with and having small children makes that even harder. I also don't want to rekindle any of my old friendships, we stopped being friends for a reason.
9 times out of 10 I really don't mind not having anyone but hubby, but those rare times when I feel like I need someone are getting harder to deal with as life gets more complicated.... Maybe I'm just bored and lonely. Maybe this is yet another consequence of my poor decisions from high school...
I just wish I had a friend.
Stay tuned
God Bless
