Seeing the signs

Last night I had a girls night with the two best friends of my life. My best friend Erika whom I’ve written about before and our other best friend Sam whom I haven’t spoken to in almost 2 years.

For the past couple months I been wanting to reach out to Sam, but something was holding me back. Now you’re going to hear a lot of stories about a woman named Gam, she was probably the most influential adult in my younger life. She passed away almost 10 years ago, but she never left. I hear and feel her in everything I do. Lately she’s been getting louder. About a month before she died we were in the car together and she said to me “I don’t worry about my girls cause I know you’ll always be there to take care of them.”

Most would think that is a very heavy thing to say to a 15yr old. But in the life I lived that was the biggest compliment I could have gotten.

The past few weeks every time it gets a little quiet in my head I can hear Gam almost yelling this at me. I’m choosing to believe Gam knows something I don’t. Maybe Sam needs me again, maybe I need her, or maybe we just need each other.

I can’t help but think it’s a sign. To have been feeling the way I have, and then out of nowhere have an impromptu dinner for no real reason… Well what would you think?

People constantly grow and change, and I know we aren’t the same girls we were when we stopped talking. So we’ll just have to take it one step at a time and hope like always we can pick up where we left off.

I’ll be sure you keep you updated!
 
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