"Friends"

I have to say, growing up I was always a little different. I wasn't the weird kid but I wasn't "cool" either. I saw myself as a social butterfly. I had friends all over but no best friends and no one I could call after school to hang out with. 

I was cool enough to go to all the birthday parties and sleepovers, but I spent most of my summers laying on the couch watching t.v. alone. I didn't have constant friends until middle school, and even then I wasn't myself and had to put up with a lot of cruelty to be "accepted". I did a lot of things I didn't want to, and participated in acts I didn't agree with all in the name of friendship. 

I had one friend in high school for a short period who I could be myself with. The first night we met we stayed up til like 5 a.m. talking. To this day we are still friends but we live a couple thousand miles apart and have families of our own so we don't talk much, but I could call her if I needed to. 

I did have a really good group of guys friends that I hung around with, but we weren't always on the same page. Quiet often though they were the only ones there for me when I needed them. Sadly though some crazy times we all separated like a lot of childhood friends do. 

So after years of failed relationships and a lot of loneliness, I was graciously accepted by an amazing family. I become the person I wanted to be with their help, and I met my absolute best friend through them. 

While now I have a big beautiful family I still don't have m(any) friends, but that's ok with me. I have the best friend I could ever find in my husband, and our kid is pretty awesome. I have all my family when I need them and I am working my way back to God. Honestly what more could I ask for? I'm just a little sad it took me so long to be realize I was fine on my own. 

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